i seriously have an eye infection? like ew.
lately i haven't really been wanting to go out and that really puts a damper on all of my friends moods. which i don't like. i don't know what it is. i don't know if it's because of karl or just because i'm lazy. what i DO know is i desperately want to quit smoking. but i'm going to light this one up and get ready, i hope!

i really need to stumble upon a small fortune. and quick! halloween adventure opens in septmeber and i know i have a job there but 7.25 is a VERY SMALL fortune and not exactly what i had in mind. i really, really need to plan a trip to florida also. i miss amberly so unbelievably much it really hurts my heart. 

anyway, i need to get ready. peace!

i haven't updated in 43 weeks! shocker.

i can't commit to anything.

i swear i wish i was stronger with a lot of shit.
i want to move on...

i didn't go to ericas surprise party today bc i've been partying my life away since thursday and i felt it would be nessescary to take a break. i took a lot of stupid pictures with everybody this weekend that i am dreading to see hahahah.

So i got suspended from neopets for 24 hours because i insulted the Jonas Brothers. lol ;]

I had a lot of fun this weekend. I love drinking at Tinas when her dad is away, I wish he'd go away more often. The first night Tina was so drunk she fell into the microwave and almost walked down the basement (would have fallen) when she was trying to go upstairs. It was a good time.

I like meeting new people.

I wish neopoints were real money, I don't know if I've said that before or not. ha
I applied for Best Buy and Chuck E Cheese. lol. That's like the bottom of the barrel for jobs. And considering I don't have my phone, I had to give them Karl and my moms number.  I hope I get a call, I can't stand not having a job for much longer. I just may kill myself.

I honestly had the creepiest dreams last night. One which the world was ending from meteors like Armageddon. One hit the statue of liberty and broke off the crown. For some reason I was with Tyra Banks though, I wont even question that! Also in the dream I seen Tina's body decapitated in her old car. I had two more. My mom was pregnant in one of them and the baby came from her boob and she killed the baby after (like what the fuck). I was freaking out/crying and she was really nonchalant about it then threw the baby on the ground. The other I just can't think of right now, but all of them were really, really scary/upsetting. I wonder why the fuck I would have nightmares like that?

there is nothing exciting about today what so ever. besides laundry and cleaning my room AGAIN. which is so far from exciting it's kind of disgusting. i honestly envy people that have their licenses. I cannot wait to get mine back. I seriously sit in the passenger seat and stare at the people who are driving, i probably don't look creepy as fuck. fuck drinking and driving forever and ever, seriously!

oh, and my phone was stolen over the weekend. maybe when i have people at my house, i should try and stay decently sober. I mean, hey, it couldn't hurt any!

i hate the rock.
this weekend is a SERIOUS blurr, i was sober for about 2 hours of it.

It's funny how I never go to the movies, yet I went two days in a row. Speaking of which, The Dark Knight was really, really good. But I didn't expect anything less. The only thing that bugged me was Christian Bale's QUEER ass batman voice, like WHY the fuck? The whole time watching it I kept thinking about how stupid he sounded oh, and his character in American Psycho. Silly me.

Anywho, I am completely about to rip my hair out. Yes, I am that bored. I wish I had fucking MONEY. Save me?